i've thought things through, and my mind's a lot clearer now. made up my mind, and i know that i can control my own mind and actions, even if i cannot control how i feel. doesn't matter if i do develop proper feelings for her, things will stay the same, i hope. i am not going to move on my own. the mind is a powerful tool. now i just need to figure out how to use it to read people's thoughts and control their actions.

had work today, and then i went to give tuition after work. super tiring i tell you, especially on lack of sleep. double the shag-ness. i honestly cannot wait to start uni already, so i can just bury myself in my studies and neglect everything else. better that way. study more, think less.