okay my start to the new year hasn't been very good actually. i haven't been doing well these few days, i'm pretty sick and i haven't really had a proper chance to talk to her for quite a while. one thing good about me that my colleagues say is i'm able to appear happy all the time. but then i hate it cause while i look happy, i'm actually feel damn sian inside. there's just so many things going on; it's really hard to take control of everything at the same time.

maybe i just want some company.

but it's just so stupid. how can you possibly let petty matters like love define your habits, your actions, and your life? i don't know why i'm always so susceptible to things like this. emo boy, they call me. this year i'm going to keep to my new year resolution as best as i can.

played basketball twice today. first time was at teosian's house, for quite a few hours in the morning. ended up with sunburns on my arms and face. went home to rest for a while then went to play basketball at leng kee cc this time. now my face and hands feel v warm. i hope i don't die tmr at the roadshow! and i'm having muscle cramps! never stretch enough.

blooooooody muscle cramps.