ORD LO! yesterday, 091109, was the day i waited 1 year and 10 months for. to finally leave the army and get back my pink ic. i'll have reservice, but whatever. right now i'm just gonna enjoy my freedom! trying hard to get myself a job, so i can use the money to support myself. got a job interview on thursday, wish me luck! btw l4d2 is really cool, played the demo yesterday and you can actually pwn zombies with a FRYING PAN. the sound of metal against zombie is just damn cool haha. cannot wait for the actual game to come out.

i've resolved to change many things in my life. one among them is myself and my way of thinking. i'm not a perfect person, and i never will be, so i will not try and act like i can be one. life is a messy affair, so i think i like things just the way it is. messed up and frustrating.

have been trying to rest my back for quite a while now, but because of close combat training last week i haven't succeeded. but here's the weird part. during the close combat training week my back didn't really hurt at all even when we executed all the break fall techniques, including the rolling break fall. the only time it hurts is when i'm sitting down, like right now. or if i sit down somewhere without back support and i lean forward. then my back will hurt really bad. i think it's getting better cause when i stand up it doesn't hurt, but i hope that it recovers soon so i can get back to exercising. very soon i will look like a boomer.