some times i just don't feel like carrying on anymore. not when i see the way people are treated. winning is important, true. i hate to lose, i really hate to lose. but there is no point in winning if you lose sight of the reason of why you started out in the first place. and i'm beginning to lose faith, despite the promise that is shown. i'm not unhappy with the people, i'm perfectly fine. but i just don't feel like i fit in, i don't feel that this is how it should be, at least not for me. my reasons were clear enough for being here, and it's not that i have a grudge with anyone, but rather that if i were to stay i wouldn't be very happy. i might leave, and i hope people don't put it against me for leaving. after all, i don't play a very important role, do i? a bench warmer's role is easily filled; the expectations aren't high.


watched (500) days of summer. pretty nice, pretty emo show. i think it's definitely one of the better shows around now, at this period of time. the other shows, like surrogates, are just a boring bunch of crap. so if you're planning to watch a movie anytime soon, this is one show you should catch!


you know, it's quite silly how things work, especially the mind. i don't know why, but i think i've got a crush on you!