army open house has been quite fun so far i guess. well maybe not exactly very fun, but at least we don't have to work all day long. so far i've done the morning shifts, so it hasn't been very crowded, especially since it's weekdays. i think the crowd will really come in tomorrow, and i'm on the afternoon shift tomorrow so i'm just gonna die i think.

my finger's recovering fast, but suddenly it all doesn't seem that great after all. i mean, sure i can play basketball again soon, but then i stop to take a look at things, and what has basketball done for me? sure i love the game. but what's it given me? nothing. it's fun, but there're so many things of greater importance that overshadow this game. maybe it's time i start to concentrate on other aspects of life other than basketball.

just watched the proposal today at cineleisure. the storyline's a bit lame and stale, but the movie itself is actually pretty good. nice and funny movie. it's interesting (and familiar) how people can suddenly fall in love with a person over the course of a few days. just reminds us of how unpredictable life can be. just a few days and your life is changed forever. sigh.

/emo

it's all just too hard to forget.it's been so long already but i'm still stuck on memories that won't go away. every time i think about you i get this aching feeling. everyone's moved on, and 'grown up'. bloody stupid thing to have ever said. 'grow up'. so the whole world did just that; grew up and left me behind. i realise i did nothing but cause pain and hurt. when i could've made someone's life a little better, all i did was to ruin it. i never even told you the real reason for us not being together. how big of a failure could i ever get? it's too late now to tell you, and too late to hope for anything. as much as i hope one day things could change, i know deep inside that things between us are over.

you were like a hurricane, coming into my life like that. you came in and turned my life upside down. but while i was in the eye of your storm, i experienced something i have never felt again in my life so far. i had everything. then all too soon you were gone, leaving in your wake only destruction and pain. destruction and pain that i have never recovered from.

i still love you, and i still love you as much as when we first got together. i have never ever felt any other way, even though at times it might have seemed like i did. i did what i felt i had to do, but that doesn't absolve any of the guilt. looking back, i realise i made many many huge mistakes. i could have chosen to take other paths, paths that at the time i never saw thanks to my ignorance. i wish i could have done things differently, so maybe now i would never have the need to type this out. because of this i was to be forgotten, and i don't blame you. i just wanted you to know how i still feel about you. i'm trying to move on too, but it looks like things will stay this way for quite a bit.